Have ya ever felt like you're so caught in a maze, got so lost like never before? Well sometimes people just get haunted by these sorta emotions inexplicably. Hell knows where the heck they come from and why they emerge to disturb you? It's excusable if you're a chick to feel upset once in a month but every now and then the emotions just inexplainably hit us guys too. Okay well maybe not all guys but at least I'm so so so included!

Crikey! These days have been sooo eventless! It's like I've just had a dream, a surreal one! Awww I miss London, I miss SOHO, I miss the freakin' freezing weather, I miss hangin' out with my boys! London was like heaven to me! I can't believe what I did in London, those crazy things! Those are forbidden to do in Malaysia. Babes you're so right "C'mon this is London, this is not Malaysia". Aiya... It was such a lovely night. How can I forget the kiss? How can I forget the warm hand? How can I forget the clubs, the boys, the music and the booze? How can I damn forget about you? Sigh.. I hate saying this! But I really thought I was way so over you already! Well I guess I was, but as always, you can cause a stir! I said I didn't wanna see you again but I just couldn't resist! So sad! Gosh I can't believe I'm sufferin' a relapse again.. :(((

Lately I got so overwhelmed by guilt. I don't know why. It's like what I did in London put someone thru hell. I didn't mean to sadden anyone. I know you care for me, sigh but that's life! I haven't changed! Okay perhaps I have. It's really tough. If you'd gimme some time, I'd study 'Be with the one you love (i can't), love the one you're with'. It's like I have to choose between Mini and Beemer, but it's not as easy as that! Life's never easy and nobody says it is! I learn as I live. It's not like I can't live without someone. If you and I don't end up together, I really you won't get too upset, cuz we can always be friends! Gosh don't let that guilt tear me apart okay!

I really miss my friends, my old friends, my high school friends, my college mates. Sorry if I had no time for you. Just so you know friendship will never perish! It's just that we're all grownups and all of us have our own lives. I still care about you people! Hehe.. If I don't see you now, I'm sure we'll meet again one of these days! I wish y'all well. =)

(postscript: I think this post is a piece of shit. I only felt like writing a line or two even tho I didn't know what to write. =[ sigh..)